growing up too fast

My little man is not even 2 months old yet and time is already going by too fast. He'll be 6 weeks on Friday. 6 WEEKS! Where on earth has the time gone? Everyone tells you "enjoy every moment, because it will be gone so quickly..." and boy were they right. He's smiling now. My little guy, and sometimes I think he laughs. He's alert and loves watching the dog, loves sleeping on my shoulder (often covering me in drool and spit-up),loves napping on the boppy on the couch, and I love nothing more than watching him. I'd love a little more sleep at night, or for him not to nurse for an hour in the middle of the night, but it means spending more time with my little guy, so I'll take it. I go back to work in a few weeks, thanks to him being 10 days late, and me starting my maternity leave too soon, and I am already dreading how much I'm going to miss him. Every day I think about being a SAHM (stay at home mom) but that thought quickly leaves when he screams for what feels like forever and I realize that there's no way we'd be able to afford it. I'm jealous of Phil who'll be home for 12 weeks once I go back, who'll get to see this little man develop even more of his personality, and I know that he'll cherish every moment he spends with him as much as I do now. He might not cherish the spit up and the sometimes REALLY messy diapers, but I'm sure he'll love watching him smile and laugh. And I'll love every minute with him once I get home.

I stole this song from another blog I've recently discovered (I have a new thing for mommy blogs) and it made me cry instantly. Big fat tears. Its from the perspective of the dad, but I don't care, it fits perfectly and I love it. I forget who it's by though. Some country singer I think.

I remember saying I don't care either way
Just as long as he or she is healthy I'm ok
Then the doctor pointed to the corner of the screen
And said "You see that thing right there well you know what that means"

And I started wondering who he was going to be
And I thought heaven help us if he's anything like me
He'll probably climb a tree too tall and ride his bike to fast
End up every summer wearing something in a cast

He's gonna throw a ball and break some glass in a window down the street
He's gonna get in trouble oh he's gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback if he's anything like me

I can see him right now knees all skinned up
With a magnifying glass trying to melt a Tonka truck
Won't he be a sight with his football helmet on
That'll be his first love til his first love comes along
He'll get his heart broke by the time he's in his teens
And heaven help him if he's anything like me

He'll probably stay out too late and drive his car too fast
Get a speeding ticket he'll pay for mowing grass
He's gonna get caught skipping class and be grounded for a week
He's gonna get in trouble we're gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep

It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback if he's anything like me

He's gonna love me and hate me along the way
Years are gonna fly by I already dread the day
He's gonna hug his momma, he's gonna shake my hand
He's gonna act like he cant wait to leave

But as he drives out he'll cry his eyes out
If he's anything like me there's worse folks to be like
Aw he'll be alright if he's anything like me